Word Count: 881
Summary: Kibum's been gone for a while. He said he'd keep in touch but hasn't so far. Donghae's upset and confides in his diary.
For penipenpen :D i hope you like (and that this wasn't a complete fail)
It’s been 4 months, 2 weeks, 3 days, 11 hours, 28 minutes, and 30 seconds since I last saw him, since I last spoke to him, since I last touched him and held him.
I miss him so much. When will he come back to me?
4 months, 2 weeks, 4 days, 15 hours, 10 minutes, and 5 seconds since the last time I heard from him. He told me he’d keep in touch but he hasn’t called me once since then. I wonder if he’s forgotten about me…
4 months, 2 weeks, 5 days, 9 hours, 30 minutes, and 26 seconds since the last time I saw him. It’s been so long since I saw him I think I’m starting to forget what he looks like.
OMG! I can’t even remember his face anymore or his smile.
4 months, 3 weeks, 6 days, 2 hours, 2 minutes, and 50 seconds since the last time I heard or saw him.
Why won’t he call me? Before he left, he told me he loved me and that he would call me everyday. But so far, no word from him. No call, no text, no email, no letter.
Does he not love me anymore? Is this his way of breaking up? *tear stain*
Did I do something wrong? Is that why he doesn’t love me anymore?
I’m sorry for whatever I did. I promise I will never do it again if only you’ll come back to me.
*tear stain*He doesn’t love me anymore. He won’t talk to me. He doesn’t want me. I overheard the other members talking and I heard that he’d been in contact with them. I can’t believe it. *tear stain* What did I do to deserve this?
Please, I promise I’ll do anything, just bring him back to me.
Donghae closed his diary as the tears overflowed. For months, he’d tried to keep his tears in but today was the last straw. He cried his heart out. He couldn’t believe Kibum, the man he loves, doesn’t love him anymore. What will he do now? He can’t live without him.
Donghae was so overcome with tears he didn’t hear his bedroom door open. He was startled when he felt arms wrap around him, comforting him. He leaned into his embrace and cried on his shoulder for his lost love. A hand rubbed his back and patted his head.
“Shh…shh…it’s alright. Let it out…”
The tears slowly stopped as he recognized the voice speaking to him. He pulled away and glanced into those brown eyes he had missed so much.
“Kibum…” His arms went around his neck as he kissed him with all the passion in him. But he realized that Kibum might not want that and tried to pull away but felt Kibum’s arms around him, keeping him in place.
“Kibum…let-let me go…” Donghae tried to push Kibum’s arms away but that only made Kibum tighten his hold on him.
“No. I’m not letting you go.” He crushed Donghae to him. “Do you have any idea how much I’ve missed you over the last few months?”
“Well if you missed me, why didn’t you call me or email me or send me a text at least?”
Kibum pulled back to look into Donghae’s eyes. “I knew if I talked to you in any way, I’d want to drop everything and come back and I couldn’t do that. I had to finish my job first before I could come home to you. That’s why I worked as hard as I could so I could leave earlier.”
Tears came to Donghae’s eyes. “I-I-I thought you didn’t love me anymore when you never tried to keep contact with me. And earlier I found out you had been talking to the other members regularly. That broke my heart. I thought you didn’t want me anymore, that you wanted to break up.”
“Break up? Why would I want to break up with my Fishy, my one and only love?”
“Really?” Donghae looked up at Kibum with hope in his eyes. “Your one and only love?”
“Yes. I love you, Lee Donghae.”
“I love you, Kim Kibum.” Their lips met in a sweet and gentle kiss that gave way to deeper desires. All the pent-up desires from the last few months burst out in a giant flame.
They quickly tore off their clothes, in a hurry to make love. Once they were both naked, Kibum plunged into Donghae without any kind of preparation but Donghae didn’t care. He was just glad to have Kibum back.
They wanted to move slowly and savor the moment but several long months of abstinence had it’s effect. Kibum pulled out and thrust back in, setting a fast pace. He thrust deeply into Donghae hitting his prostate dead on. Donghae came loud and quickly, all over their stomachs. Kibum followed soon after.
They collapsed on the bed, tired, spent, and content. Donghae snuggled into Kibum’s embrace.
“I missed you so much. Next time you’re gone for that long without a word, I’m going to hurt you.”
Kibum grinned. “Alright. I love you, Donghae.”
“I love you, Kibum.” They kissed one more time before falling asleep in each other’s arms.
A/N: my first attempt at angst...i hope it wasn't a complete fail...i normally don't do angst, i'm more of a fluff person...
i wrote this in a few minutes too...really hope it wasn't a fail...